Are you a gunther?

Spoiler alert!  To be honest, found this drafted post on my hard drive and it resonance, so it really only is a spoiler if you catch ancient reruns on hulu!

 

Ok, ok so I’m completely guilty and unassumingly a Grey’s Anatomy watcher and I recently caught episode 3 from the 5th season (come on, you all know which one I’m talking about, don’t play!), where the surgeons we know and love go into surgery without an attending’s lead in order for them to duke it out under pressure in the OR and save a life instead of bickering at each others throats and letting egos get in the way.

 

Obviously, there are natural born leaders and there are those who naturally take a back seat.  There are those who are so type A and can’t handle being second string (ahheemm, Yang…) who aggressively take charge and then who’s over-confidence and hasty actions cause more harm than good.  Then there are the few who perhaps are more silent leaders, those unexpected, who have the skill and use it wisely when the time is right.  What type are you? In life? In the studio?  What happens when creative opportunities arise and you are working in a group to  deliver a single work with one clear focus.  There are those who will inherently speak up and there are those who will inherently listen.

 

What is being asked of you at your job?  Does your boss want to see you take a lead role?  Is this something that can be turned on and turned off at times?  If we are aware of how we normally react in creative group scenarios, could we then capable of altering our nature to gel more effectively and create the most productive work environment?  I always believe yes.

 

Dancing is a particularly collaborative work environment and I am constantly reminded of this teamwork while creating new work and coming together to create a piece with a single cohesive idea.  Listening to those we are working beside as well as the head honcho in the room, helps make creative choices in alignment with the work.  So no need to be the loudest or one coming up with idea after idea, even though your inner ham may be craving center stage!  Let’s focus on the quality of your contribution and your delivery; demeanor, tone and timing affect how your idea is perceived and potentially welcomed.

 

But then of course, when your awareness and consideration of the group task at hand is clearly understood – let your creative juices run wild…and as the doctors do – save the day!

A lovely evening of dance….

Post graduation run ins with old friends generally turns me into one of those annoyingly smiley, giddy girls who’s voice flies up at least two octaves. I found myself happily squealing away during the beginning, intermission, and end of MMC classmate, Andrea Gise’s TYPE3 dance concert at Triskelion Arts in Willamsburg. Seeing Andrea’s work and knowing the dedication she places on starting, maintaining, and growing her company, agise & dancers, is purely inspirational. In college she always struck me as one with such an intrigue for choreography with an inventive mind and strong-headed clarity on what she deemed important.

One rule of thumb I have for a dance concert, brought shamelessly into fruition thanks to dearest friend Rebecca Rainey (better known as Rebe), is that if I remain alert and engaged, and essentially don’t have a nod off moment while watching, (yes, there I said it – gasp! And I call myself a dancer!), then for the most part, I was intrigued and enjoyed the concert. There is something about a fed belly on a glass of wine, in a dark theatre that cries for at least a heavy eyelid. I used to feel awful about this nagging sleepiness that would wash over me until Rebe allowed me to loose the guilt and put it into blunt reality. Sometimes it’s just not interesting enough to hold your attention. Obviously, this isn’t my singular significant marker for a captivating performance or ingenious choreography, but it sure can point out moments that are sub par.

Andrea’s concert featured 4 works and I’d have to say the newest creation, TYPE3, had me the most on edge; continuously surprised and feening for the next movement that would arise from the dancers’ bodies. The way the movements collided unexpectedly into one another had me curious and kept my eyes glued to the performers’ next steps. Now call me biased, but I don’t care, I am about to ruthlessly toot the horn of some colleagues who had me so moved. Celia DeVoe, a dancer with Andrea since our days in college, is someone who understands Andrea’s choreographic technique and somehow subtly and lusciously flows through the inventive, unexpected, and jagged movement vocabulary as if that is the only way one would ever conceive of moving their body. Kim Machaby moves with precision and clarity to truly annunciate each moment with such a purity of focus and Katelyn Chakey is a captivating powerhouse who leaves no movement to waste. Alexandra Rose who I haven’t seen dance in unfortunately such a long time had me amazed by her dynamic artistry and choreographic talents (she presented a work of her own as well) which somehow managed to mature even more beautifully with years past.

So enough gushing! Here’s a did-bit on how Andrea operates behind the scenes….

Andrea thrives on asking her dancers for movements that are not cliché and calls upon images and ideas that generate movements not seen from dance concert to dance concert. I had the blessed experienced to work on a solo with Andrea this summer, and the proof was in the pudding. She saw images of a spring winding up eventually leading to the point of inevitable destruction. The first day of rehearsal she had me moving up and down in a single location, moving my arms in linear, cylindrical pathways. Not only did I have two left feet, but my feet belonged to two different people entirely. I quickly discovered the challenge of transforming this choreographic vision into something conceivable on my body. (Being performed Nov 29th @ 8pm @ Red Bean Studios on 320 West 37th Street – shameless plug!) Having this knowledge of how Andrea pulls new ideas out of her dancers, elevated my level of respect for the performers on stage who danced as if the next moment was precisely what should come next, no matter how contorted.

Another fabulous (if you ask me!) aspect of the evening was the inclusion of other art forms into the concert. WhaleHawk created all the music for the pieces, and played a live set to open the concert as well as at intermission. While they did not perform live with the dancers, they encapsulated the mood of the evening and allowed the audience to see and absorb them in action and take a piece of them into the dance. Not to mention, it made those moments of quiet reading of program notes, ransacked by jamming out to their entrancing music. I literally had to move right next to them to check out how they were making magic happen on these high-tech (to me at least – doesn’t take much!) instruments to blend in alternative beats. Also, Philip Kowlton’s (Andrea’s sweetheart… what a dynamic duo!) backdrop of city landscapes for the new creation fit seamlessly with Andrea’s confrontational, and abrupt dynamics without distracting from the work of the dancers. Gosh this doesn’t happen enough!

Andrea’s work had me proud; proud to have come from the same educational background of someone who created a beautifully progressive work of art. Proud that a colleague of mine is producing work just as I had imaged her to do years ago, and proud of where I can fathom her heading years down the road.

photos from our performance @ PS/21: The Tent in Chatham, NY

Kicking off the new season at one of our favorite performance spaces: PS21. Thank you Judy for another amazing year of performances and welcoming us back home!

Check out photos here!

Performance Pressures….bring it on!

Inspired by:
Rick Pitino, with Bill Reynolds
“Success is a Choice: Ten steps to overachieving in business and life”

….it’s been awhile since I’ve posted but here’s for some ruthless gumption!

My boyfriend (at the time….unfortunately a long story) lent me Rick Pitino’s “Success is a Choice” when I was craving a motivational, self-help if you will, read. I didn’t know what to expect from the former NY Knicks coach, but turned out his motivational mantras proved more than valid and helpful when applied in reference to dancing and working effectively within a dance company, which at times is absolutely a team or family. As I enter my second season with Parsons Dance, it is my upmost priority to make this season more fulfilling than the first. To take what challenged me, and make those weaknesses into my strengths, and to maximize my strengths to capitalize on what makes me special as a dancer. One aspect I wish to focus on here is performance pressure. As performers we’ve all had our moments where we feel these pressures seep into our bones, when the thought of convincingly moving those rattling bones becomes a much more daunting accomplishment than moments prior in rehearsal. In class and rehearsals, we can more easily tap into the glorious freedom of taking risks with movement and being fearless to make big mistakes and take a wipeout in lieu of finding where our physical limitations lie; these moments are exhilarating because we are pushing ourselves to our maximum. Performance can be exhilarating as well, when those limitations found by falling in the studio, can be trusted and so closely breached as we propel our body full throttle through space with the somewhat-calculated knowledge gained from hours of rehearsal. Most shocking however is, as a professional, this liberty of rehearsing specific works repeatedly to gain the confidence and full comprehension of how our bodies respond to each moment, simply doesn’t exist. Lack of funds, relates directly to the amount of rehearsal time allotted which relates directly to the feeling of preparedness prior to lights, costumes, and stage. I’ve been off-stage with only a single-hand of run-thrus under my belt, partner and all – “Slow Dance” this past summer is reminiscent – and forced to take this pressure and turn it into a positive influence and deliver a moving, elating experience for myself and the audience. Was I completely certain about every moment in the piece? No. We can never be entirely certain of a performance. It hasn’t happened yet; we don’t know what lies ahead. That’s life and what makes it exciting, unless we prefer to take this unknown and make it feel daunting instead. The choice is ours. Pressures exist, and thank god they do. They make us strive harder, longer, seeking finer details and additional nuances. If deadlines of performances and expectations of artist directors and fellow dancers didn’t exist and impose the feeling of wanting to be the best version of ourselves for them, we would be floating around in the blasé realm of mediocrity. And as far as I’m concerned, when we feel ourselves slipping into coasting mediocrity, which inevitably happens from time to time, we need to gratefully seize the opportunity to up the ante, set new goals, reach for higher sights.

So lets not feel negative pressure from the audience and those we wish to impress; that simply leads to stress and fear of failure – completely stifling. Failure is only an emotion we chose, not in definitive existence. Choosing to fear failure of certain moments within a piece, or not having the best performance, we are allowing those fears to take control unnecessarily. Instead lets use the pressure opportunity to see how far we can go. No two performances will ever be the same and this uncertainty is exciting.

So, easier said than done. How can we feel we have a grip on this pressure? For one thing, be confident in the moments we do know in a dance. Do our homework. Know every count, study a video, get into the studio and do some extra work to ease out the moments we don’t know as well or don’t feel as organic on our bodies. No rehearsal time with the rest of the company doesn’t mean we have to stop our work there and settle for not being as comfortable as we need to feel prior to a performance. Eliminate the uncertainties we have control over because other obstacles will always throw us for a loop in live performance – costume malfunction (Nasciemento skirt becoming untied and strings playfully doing another dance around my ankles), odd wings and back stage space (try an octagonal stage in FL with wings about two feet deep with 3 dancers hiding before a grand entrance), makeup running in our eyes (performing Envelope with my glasses pressed onto my face so hard my mascara runs and I’m forced to see out of one, barely open, blurry eye, which tends to happen on multiple occasions). Who says I’m talking from personal experience?? ; )

The performance is going to happen regardless. We choose to experience it trepidatiously or with an all-out vigor leaving no moment full expressed. Lets find trust in our work ethic and discipline. Performance is the prize for all those endless hours of rehearsal and class. So what if we’ve only rehearsal a dance 5 times before we perform it. We’ve had countless hours of dancing under our belt that prepares us to fly under this moment. So lets bring on the pressure and find out just what we are capable of; I bet we’ll surprise even ourselves.

(….gosh, even re-reading this serves as a helpful reminder!)

Outreach @ Terence Cardinal Cook Care Center

Julie Blume, veteran Parsons dancer, has an ongoing relationship with Eileen Fogarty who works at Terence Cardinal Cook Health Care Center (found on fifth avenue between 105th and 106th streets) and has repetitively and graciously organized a performance for the patients suffering with Huntington’s Disease.  This year, I was gratefully able to participate in this informal showing where we did segments of various Parsons pieces in the gymnasium of the care center.  Huntington’s Disease is genetically transmitted and gradually degenerates the nerves cells found in the brain.  Physical symptoms include sudden quick jerks of random limbs, facial movements, slow uncontrolled movements, and head turning to focus the eyes.  Behaviorally, irritability, mood swings, dementia, loss of memory and judgement, and changes in personality and speech ensue.  There is no cure or medications to prevent its onset and if a parent has the disorder, you have a 50% chance of having the same gene mutation responsible for its development.  Those receiving care at Terence Cardinal Cook are in the more advance stages of their disease, and our respectful and enthusiastic audience were wheelchair-bound and accompanied by those who assist in their care.  Everyone had varying capabilities and methods of soaking in our performance.  I strongly believe whether or not their eyes were focused on us, our energy and even the mere shift in their daily regimen had some positive effect on their spirits.  Many applauded and commented during and after each piece which brought added reassurance.

By far one of the most touching and enthusiastic viewers was Julio, sitting front and center, who was a professional flamenco dancer in Cuba.  Amazingly, he had much of his wit and dance knowledge still with him.  The thought of using your body as a form of expression and way of being, to then later be completely deprived of your body control and confined to a seat day in and day out is beyond comprehension.  Julio carried an air of acceptance and knowledge about his degenerative state, but maintained a glowing face and his contagious laughter.

It is so beautiful to have the capacity to extend yourself to others and this experience reinforced the gift of waking up every morning with the ability to dance.  Here are some photos Eileen took throughout the afternoon.  The dancers beyond myself who participated include: Julie Blume, Sarah Braverman, Eric Borne, John Corsa, Emily Daly, Jason Macdonald, and Ian Spring.  Very much looking forward to our next visit!

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Day One of Parsons Dance!

Today was my first official day as a Parsons dancer!  No more apprenticeship or understudy position – ahhhh, feels super!  How did day one go?  Well, I attempted to be studious with the idea of hitting the sack early and packing my bag before I started drooling on my pillowcase to insure a calm, orderly morning.  The reality?  I worked until midnight last night at the restaurant and face-planted my pillow when I got home.  The consequence was to find myself running out of my apartment with puffy eyes and crazy hair as soon as I woke this morning since my cat didn’t have any food in the cabinet for breakfast.  I returned with Friskies in tow to a meowing kitty with a growling belly of my own only to discover my fridge lacked any sort of a sensible breakfast.  I completely stole the remaining milk from my roommate. (Sorry Christie!)  Next discovery?  My laundry was still at the cleaners and my drawers were devoid of any semblance of dance clothes.  So needless to say, I made a few extra run outs and wasn’t exactly slowly sipping my tea while listening to NPR.   Bottom line?  I made it to rehearsal with first-day-pep in my step and some time to stretch out my tight hamstrings.  Side note:  my hammies have been particularly tight because I started taking these amazing, but killer, core-fusion classes at The Body where I am soon to be training as an instructor for some supplemental dance income!  More on this in a later post…

After a series of welcome back hugs and chatting about the tidbits of our summer that have been off each others’ radars, we got straight to business and Liz (associate artistic director extraordinaire) went over who’s going to be doing what for the upcoming performance of Remember Me in Chatham, NY for PS 21 (Performance Spaces for the 21st Century).  This performance is somewhat of a transition between the former and new company – Julie will still be dancing, but this will sadly be her last performance – and some dancers will actually have to learn a separate role for when this upcoming season is underway.  Always a fun mind game!  Yet, there’s no better way to have a deeper understanding of the work and be a more educated teacher.  I fortunately will be the same role in Chatham as in the rest of the season, but it is a separate role from my initial Remember Me experience (I was Julie’s role and now slipping into Lauren’s and most of the core movement is similar – phew!).

The entire company is not back in rehearsals quite yet, so it was just us new folks – myself, Jason, and Ian – along with the help of Sarah, Julie, and Eric.  Most of the day we were translating from the video and sketching out as much of the piece as possible.  We got through the first half, which included about three sections for the ensemble.  Great progress for day one, but if I never have to learn another dance off a video I would die a happy dancer.  Dance companies across the board rely on videos in rehearsal to pass down the information effectively and it gets the job done.  It absolutely is a great record of dance – beats labanotation for the purpose of disseminating movement to future members for sure.  Now to completely dismiss the aforementioned, I find it incredibly tedious and instantly my dyslexia, seemingly inapparent in my writing, comes out in full force as I stare blankly at the screen for what feels like five minutes just to distinguish if I am on stage right or stage left.  Oy!  A good practice of patience I presume.  In addition to my bouts of mental slowness, the energy and dynamism of live performance get muffled through video and I’m often stuck learning movements and then applying the layers of performance, interaction, and energy afterwards.  It is a blessing to have the minds of those who originally conceived this piece in the room to retain and communicate the original intent.  Ideally, with each learning experience I’m attempting to embody the movement in as close to the full, performance form as possible.  I am itching to dance Remember Me with full gusto and looking forward to sinking deeper into it all tomorrow and eventually with a full cast.  Damn, patience is my arch-nemesis.

Assessment of day one?  My body felt a little “crunchy” (typical dance lingo for feeling less than supple!) and I plan on getting to the studio even earlier tomorrow to give myself a proper ballet barre.  That is, if my morning is more zen than today’s fun madness!  Face-planting pillow soon!

Inspiration from a Dear Friend: Conquer Choreographic Fears

Those you surround yourself with have such an impact on your actions and thoughts.  My dear friend Kate Griffler serves as a constant motivating force.  In between gigs and rehearsal processes, I need to keep close with friends who will plow through the disconnected feeling these NYC summer months create right alongside me.  The summer months are notoriously slow for dance here – a tell-tale sign is always the lack of significant auditions.  “Oh great they’re looking for dancers!  Oh, there’s only three rehearsals…  Oh, no pay.  Lunch and video provided! How accommodating….”  Sigh.  A career in dance can readily feel like a hobby with someone’s mother packing your lunch box and your youthful studio video taping your culminating recital.  All wonderful moments; just not when you’re trying to pay rent.   For a positive spin, the slower dance months are a great opportunity to hone other aspect of your craft, otherwise neglected.

So these challenges aside and this positive spin in full force, Kate works so doggedly at her passion of dancing and choreographing.  She never relinquishes when the harshness of the industry (measly paychecks, attempting to produce your own work with limited funds, advertising creatively in an over-saturated world to name a few more, with no intentions of dampening your spirit of course!) get the best of her.

Last week I had the privilege of finally seeing “Un Duet Noir,” a piece she has been working on throughout these past few months taking on various final versions throughout its development.  Kate’s work displayed the dark emotions underlying an intimate relationship and the progression of emotions over time.  She had a set consisting of a black cloak, a mailbox, and about one hundred letters.   Kate’s props advanced and morphed with the development of the piece, taking on new meaning as the relationship between her and fellow dancer McCay Montz shifted and intensified; the cloak once something revered and cherished later masked and blinded her from reality, and the letters once scattered about the space later were packed into the mailbox.

© Paolo Ferraris

Although Kate’s props were rather basic for our overly visual society to accept, I view sets as another layer of choreography added to an already challenging creative environment and generally react pitifully tame and steer clear despite audiences’ ready capacity for visual stimulation.  Yes, now acknowledging this small fear, I will have to push myself to explore this with my next creative endeavor!  (This blog is going to be the death of me, holding me accountable in writing!)

Why this reaction from myself?  Props and video instantly add 1) an additional financial burden – even if its slight, 2) a physical burden – carrying them around town to various spaces and setting them up for each rehearsal, and 3) an artistic challenge – this being the most significant deterring factor for me because the prop/video needs to be integral to the piece and be used creatively throughout for it to be an enhancement.  Instead of smelling fear, Kate finds it easier to create once a tangible scene has been set on the stage.  Automatically now, the characters/dancers have objects to relate and respond to based on their own isms.  It serves as an aid to generate movement rather than an additional burden.  (One potential solution to conquering my hesitation!)

In similar vein to weaving sets compellingly into work, Kate also exemplified the intermingling between technically oriented movement and more theatrical/pedestrian gestures within her piece.  This is also a direction I am interested in heading choreographically.  My previous works in college and there after have been primarily movement based.  The theatrical moments Kate utilized throughout “Un Duet Noir” were dispersed within dance-oriented sections so it never felt uncharacteristically jolting.  How did she successfully strike this balance?  My deductive reasoning after chatting and engaging in the work is her character development.  The letters in the work are letters she wrote to those she had a complicated relationship with in her life.  However, she not only wrote them but mailed them to herself and reread them as they were delivered back to her apartment.  She wrote multiple letters to one person in varying tones and improvised different scenarios to question the reactions and motives of those she was investigating.  When she was creating, she knew her characters inside and out.  When solidifying the vocabulary she wasn’t setting choreography on dancers; she was embodying the gestures and body language of these depicted characters.  This allowed for the dance movement to be an extension of the pedestrian language and exist in this fluid cohesion.

© Paolo Ferraris

Anyone can string together a series of interesting (or not so interesting!) movement. A valid choreographer is capable of stringing these thoughts together and sculpting a scene in an inventive and intelligible pathway.  This brings a weight to the work elevating it from moving limbs to moving art.  One sign of a well-crafted piece is when you can sense the audience is with you.  (How I hate the shuffling and coughing of an audience as a struggling performer!) At the very end of the work, there is a playful moment between Kate and McCay where he jabs a note on her chest and she just peers back at him, a glimmer of a smirk on her lips, holding the heir of utter understanding only two people with a deep history can share.  There was a collective chuckle released from the audience who finally exhaled after traveling committedly through the dark drama prior.

© Paolo Ferraris

“Un Duet Noir” is a deeply personal expression of a relationship in Kate’s life.  (Ironically with this last performance, the relationship in actuality has somewhat withered away.)  She plans on leaving the personal to dive into the play of random objects, imposing a connection externally rather than from a deeply internal origin for her next work.

“Un Duet Noir” was presented at The Rover on 41 Wooster Street: A new venue launching various dance artists.  It also holds affordable rehearsal space ($10/hr) and classes – check it out!

Here’s Kate’s company website, 121 Dance Project, if your further interested in her work.